I Become So Numb

No graphical image,no stylized picture, no beautiful fonts will describe the state of mind I'm in at the current time so just want to keep it simple by just filling in some words.Dont know how many would read my post but still I'm writing for my own sake.

 
            

                        Few days back an incident opened my eyes of how fool I was,actually my friends would say it was long ago but the ghost still haunts me again and again and reminds me of how fool i was or have been for a whole long period.No I dont wanna blame anybody for my state and I'm not at all depressed of being in such a state, actually I feel quite releaved in this form of mind,yes complete solitude!!!!!!!!!!!
            A friend once told me " Bus,Train aur Larki in sabke piche daur na mat ek jati hai dusri ati hai" ha ha,such a funny fellow he is.Yes everybody, is telling me its enough come on move on,but was i really settling down that i need to move. yes and no at the same time,why ? dont ask me I'm too idiot to answer such a question.
            "We don’t need no ejucation" sings the Pink Floyd and "I become So numb" with Linkin Park,where when how answers all unknown unanswered................
                Ohh what am i saying does they really have any meaning at all?I would say why you dont know me?that you are trying to find meaning in my words?
                To the Queen of the Moon,to the Piggy darl of childhood,to the gal whom i never could say.Yeah you all were right,I was the wrong one,I was the real inglourious,but you all deserved more,much more than this "Opodartho jonmo amar, opodartho kormo amar"singing man could get for you. Forgive my ignorance you all whom I thought only thought for me about me,but real facts were always against me playing for my opponents.
       So my dears amd my life i bid you adieu of your empty state of motions,and invite to my mind the state of mind so that i can say
" I BECOME SO NUMB,THAT I CANT FELL YOU HERE"

GADHA THE MULE

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Adrija Brought me a gadha last night and told me to make it human like. But I tried hard to think how to make this STUPID Mule smart until it struck me.The result was………………………………

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picture Drawn by:ADRIJA BHATTACHARYA

Colored By : ME

A TRIP TO REMEMBER

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ALL IS WELL !!!!!!!!

Hello Bloggers,this is my first blog of the month and specially after a wonderful and splendid visit of MALDA MURSIDABAD with my lovely mates,but I wont be blogging anything bout the trip in the current blog,as it will be done in a special blog later when I will get it well composed as so many things to say but my vocabulary is mere.

The thing I felt last night when I was listening to the ALL IZ WELL track from the film 3IDIOTS inspired me to scribble something down.

“All is well“ the three simple words means a lot and holds different aspects and relative meaning in every other beings beings life.”WELL” what does it actually mean:- well being,well formed,well motivated or just good health,what? Well,WELL actually means all of them,yes, but its relevance is different for different people in terms of their aspects.

What I fell these days that people rather hide their feelings and emotion by these 3 words.No body can be absolutely happy or absolutely well of health but still when you ask somebody “How are You?How is everything going?” the most obvious and common answer that you might come across is “ALL IS WELL”.

So is these three words the light of hope residing in us all??Is it only for this reason we try to neglect of sufferings,hide it from others but thinking everything is going fine rather very well?? The answer is unknown to me and I will definitely try to find it out soon till then ALL IS WELL for me too.

TOO BE CONTINUED.............

PS: Emotions can only be expressed by human beings,so dont hide them let them flow

Sada Jama Pora Lok

                   Fossils has released its latest album F3,and as expected from this undisputed no1 Bengali rock band F3 is a awesome collection as was Fossils & Fossils2 was.Tracks such as Bhoot R Tilottoma,Bidroher- Pandulipi,Haspatale,Maa,Phire Cholu are food for the fans.But rather than the music which is always great, what is more likely to get noticed is the albums conceptual theme,Death of a fictional character called “SADA JAMA PORA LOK”,I start a few speculation about him and this is what i felt.

                  The sada jama man is narrated as is being killed by three bullets near  “RAIL LNE ER DHARE”.Lot of speculation

goes over this so called accident,until the sada jama scumbles to death in HASPATAL E,where from he becomes “National Laash”,oviously a “Todonto Commetee” is set up for the investigation.

               Now Train track,accident,todonto comittee does all this sound familiar to any previous newz,yes it does! I will not certainly name the incident coz as in the song it self after the incident for few days his ”BHOKTERA” becomes “KICHUTA HOTAASH”,ya only for few days of course!

                   Now really this is human nature,people shows their interest only until the news is hot,then all becomes normal.But the band has obviously showed how the at least haven't forgotten any incident.

                   Now you may think ooh its just yet again another blab blab about another murder or what of a man who became a great news a few days ago,but no think of it like this,what does SADA JAMA means?Innocence,peace and harmony.The death of Sada Jama shows us how every day our Innocence is being taken away from us. Ultimately as a result of this we are slowly becoming “DANOB” and the band sings about”DANOBER PANDULIPI”.

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Diplomats,Liers,Masked people---i hate u all

The fire inside me is growing day by day,the fire of rage,the fire of hatred for the masked peoples around me who speak something in the front and stab me sweetly in the back when I'm not there.

As the kind of people are increasing day by day i can now detect them quite easily,but the real pain lies in the fact that most of them are my near and dear one s whom i trusted the most,may be I'm wrong is what u say,but i have enough seen and felt their hatred toward me which they don't directly speak of.

My life is in a mess because of them,they made me choose the wrong way,they trapped me,they destroyed my sweet innocence,but now i can't do anything but cry,cry the hell.

Why ?why did the did this to me ,am i that bad,i didn't hurt them,i never thought of ever injuring them,but only to help them to my best abilities,then why? i get no answers.yes,u may think that I'm getting quite a psycho,but the fact is,pain is felt to the most if hurt has occurred to thy self.I don't know where my life will lead me,but still then I'll remember the help i have got from them,and will surely try and repay them a part of it if cant the full.

WHY?REALLY WHY?

Living in a big city like kolkata has some Bright side and Dark side too.


Ya i mostly agree with the gooder one such as easy availability of every thing but cant deny that some peace essential for the mind is also not being served in my plate.



I need time and space to concentrate but i cant find one.Ya it might be the wacky neighbours i hav got but still i think the problem is inside of me "my innerself's".
The daily commution to my working place had had a n effect in my mind and its growing rapidly,being the fact of the people living under the "shanty bridges in khidderpore" or"the girl near the bus stop" who keep asking for alms but without getting one anyday vanished into desolation one day.Why?i really mean Why?
I know the answer i was wondering was seached by a even being by an immense being too but couldnt get,so there is no question of mine.But still why?why?cant be there be an equality/why cant a being choose his own destiny?Is the pleasures only for certain people.Thoughts dissapear.But THE QUESTION never dies..............................................